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WISH GRANTED (From Modern Prayers for Modern People)

April 5th, 2014
My heart remains in Hawaii

My heart remains in Hawaii

I carried my wish granting crystal in the coin pocket of my skinny jeans for four days. On Thursday I wished for a man. I begged for a man. I demanded a man. I even wined a bit hoping the universe would shower some kindness and compassion upon my blackened soul.

Dear Powers That Be,

Bless you for granting my wish.

Thank you for taking me out of my hell of incessant suffering and

removing me from the solitary confinement which sooths my soul.

Allowing me the pleasure of pressing my skin against another’s skin.

Breathing his breath as though it were my own.

Feeling his heart beat inside of my heart.

Experiencing pure ecstasy of looking into his eyes, looking into mine.

Merged with the infinite, for that moment, I no longer felt dead.

Men, Prayer, desire, and begging , , ,

THE SOUL HAS NOW LEFT THE BODY

October 22nd, 2013
"Bonks" and I chanting before his departure.

“Bonks” and I chanting before his departure.

That’s what my veterinarian said as she euphonized my beloved pet. “Do you want to stay with him for awhile?” She asked. Heck no, why would I want to hang out with an empty shell? “The body is just a vessel” She said that also.

The soul has left the body. That is exactly what I thought when I came home last Friday night only half drunk and in tears. New job. Same story. For the past 10 years I have dreaded every job that I have had in the Fashion Industry. The first 15 years weren’t quite so bad when the money was good and work was plentiful.

My friend and colleague in the industry said one day this past summer, “this kind of work erodes the soul.”

So, last Friday night I took ½ of a tablet of an anti-depressant. I begged my doctor to write a prescription for me several weeks ago when I was still un-employed. I told him that I couldn’t afford to go to a “specialist” doctor.

They sat on my night stand as I prayed day and night to feel better. I made a deal with myself. I was convinced that once I started working again I would no longer feel depressed. The reality was that working just takes my mind off the depression, while I am working.

I woke up Saturday morning and as I went to make coffee I thought, My Soul has now officially left my body. I watched my “alternative self” switch to auto-pilot. I was horrified and relieved all at the same time.

No feelings, no emotions, productive.

 

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PEACE PROPOSAL TO MYSELF (Declaration and vow of daily happiness)

June 15th, 2013

(From: “F-ed up prayers for F-ed up people” or “Modern Prayers for Modern people”)

Before the end of 2015 I will be fully immersed in my new career and life path as Holistic Coach.

I will be living in financial, spiritual, and sexual abundance with one or more life partners.

Food will be my friend and create joy in my life.

Like-minded people who contribute and support my growth will surround me.

Pleasure will dominate pain.

Love will pave the way.

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SUNDAY PRAYER

July 3rd, 2012

7/02/2012

Dear me, it’s me

Please protect me on Sunday’s.

Allow me to never fall prey to the seductions of intellectual men.

To ignore the pleasures of the senses that lead to unwise choices.

And most of all,

Steer me away from the “walk of shame”, leading me only

To the path of righteous self respect, love, and contentment without

drama.

Prayer, desire, and begging , , , , ,

SUMMER PRAYER

September 28th, 2010

This prayer is to Nanak-the 4th Sikh Guru – June 2009
Nanak is the granter of miracles

Oh Nanak-
Grant me the peace and serenity
To find comfort in the sound of my own footsteps
echoing off the clouds of the night time sky

To hear laughter in the sweet sounds of the singing birds
In the earliest silence of the pastel dawn

To open my heart a bit more and allow
The warmth and generosity of the universe to creep in

To stretch my wings wide enough to protect all those who
suffer and uplift those without hope

Oh Nanak-
Your strength is mine

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